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One last
fight we couldn’t win. It’s with
a broken heart I write to tell you my beloved Teddy and I
lost our final battle on December 30, 2010.
Our life together had been an emotional one; happy
for every moment we were together (having celebrated 7 years
together this past November) and trying for every medical
challenge Ted had faced.
During
our life together Ted had become quite the spokesman for
shelter pets, especially those with special needs. He was
featured in a local fund raising calendar for the Monmouth
County SPCA (Mr. May 2006). He
went on to promote the calendar on a local cable show “The
Pet Stop”, in our hopes to encourage people to adopt special
needs pets and do themselves a favor by finding their best
friend. He walked for several years in the Belmar St.
Patrick’s Day parade (being the ‘star’ of the local cable TV
parade coverage). He also walked
to raise funds, as an alumni, for the MCSPCA.
His adoption story had been covered in a local
newspaper, again reminding people to consider adopting pets
with special needs; truly a celebrated life.
After
overcoming his skin disease which plagued him when we
adopted each other, to a diagnosis of a stage three mast
cell cancer almost four years ago which resulted in the loss
of one eye followed by chemotherapy and radiation, Ted’s
trials were not done. All of
which he faced with an abundance of courage and strength
I’ve rarely encountered in life.
He willingly followed the doctors and technicians in for
treatment (as I worried and fretted for the treatment to be
over and for him to be returned to me).
Never once did he hesitate, but courageously walked
ahead. So many times upon
returning, the technicians would tell me how extraordinary
he was and how typically “the Westies tend to nip and be
uncooperative”, but Ted was a perfect gentleman.
No surprise to me, from the moment we met Ted wanted
only to give and receive love and gladly accepted all
treatments in his, what seemed never ending, battle to feel
better. Ted beat the odds with
that cancer, 36 months after surgery no sign of recurrence.
However, not his last visit to the oncologist.
Early summer of 2010 brought what the doctor called a
multi focal carcinoma. “We won’t
be as successful with this one” the doctor said.
Of course once again Ted and I experienced a miracle
and for no reason the doctors could explain after aspirating
the lumps they started to get smaller and smaller and then
gone. Not just one time but
twice, baffling all. I didn’t
question it, Ted was my miracle from the beginning, I was
just happy for one more day with him.
Finally,
in the fall Ted was diagnosed with COPD and pulmonary
hypertension. A battle we
weren’t going to win. With a
logical mind, I knew how lucky I had been for Ted to have
reached the age of 14 with all he had been through but with
my heart, wanted him to stay with me forever.
I told
the Doctor, “if I hear you say one more time, ‘Westies are
prone to this’, I’m going to explode!”
At some point in Ted’s first seven years of life,
prior to our meeting, I figured he must have won the
Westminster blue ribbon. In
order for one little dog to be stricken with what seemed
every ailment known to the breed he must have received that
title of “ultimate” breeding in the dog world.
Of course in my world he was just the ultimate;
ultimate companion, ultimate caregiver, ultimate
teacher….most certainly the love of my life. We tried the
medications which gave him relief for a short period of time
but when it became increasingly harder for him to breathe, I
knew we had run out of those miracles.
I feel so blessed to have had my time with Ted and
will have his spirit with me always.
I love and miss him more than I can put into words.
As a friend described: “A
love story worthy of a novel.”
My tiny house has become cavernous without that big
personality. Around his neck
hung charms which read:
Survivor, Courage, Strength, Wisdom, Faith; words describing
his awe inspiring spirit.
I thank
WestieMed for helping Ted and I in the beginning of our life
together to overcome that first hurdle.
I believe it made a difference through the many other
trials to know there are so many people out there that care.
Thank you for helping us and so many others.
Take
Care,
Sue and
forever & always My Teddy
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